Monday, August 24, 2009

New commitments.

Well I have 23 months until I hit 40. Why is this so important to me? Not only is a huge milestone in age, its a health milestone for me. I want to be healthier and I have tried so many times before. I woke up a couple of days ago and decided that 40 is my goal. I cant change when I turn 40

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Homschooling, can I really do this?

So I have been informed that doing virtual school is not ACTUALLY homeschooling. Hey they're home and they're doing school here. Its homeschooling.

It means that I have to do some major adjustments. I am fine with that for the most part. It will mean that I will have to get help on the days when I am working in the schools but thats ok. It also means I wont have as much free time. That is probably for the best though. I have had some time to think about these things and I think I can make it work, until we move at least I have a lot of help.

I am a little nervous though about a few things. Socially I dont know if Im doing the right thing? Given how badly my girls were bullied last year it makes me NOT want them to socialize with a lot of kids. We love our friends dearly and of course will keep up with them but as for the general population of their school last year? No way.

I worry that I will be too controlling, I dont want that for my kids. I want to be the best parent I can be for them and guide them but I dont want to rule their lives.


I do think it will be good for them though. I want it to be good for them. They're excited which means something, right?

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

they say that change is good.

Well if that's true then I am absolutely fantastic!

I have moved around most of my life, being a pastors kid you don't get a lot of other options. We moved the first time when I was just a few months old and kept going from there. I always joked that I was part gypsy but I think there is some truth to that.

We have been in this town now for 12 years which is by far the longest I have ever lived anywhere. Now its coming to an end. My husband was promoted (yay) and we are moving 1000 miles away. Part of me is ready for the adventure but now that I have kids of my own, I worry about them. I always enjoyed picking up and moving to a new place. I could start all over. No one would know that I fell off the monkey bars at my school and my parents had to come and get me. Or that I had a huge crush on the most popular boy in school and he lived to torment me. I could be whoever I wanted to be and no one would know I was ever anything else. Of course it didn't always work out like that. Once a klutz always a klutz. Somethings follow you no matter where you go.

but how will my kids take it? Will they enjoy a new adventure? I have certainly made it seem like a grand adventure, we have visited our new town and they all seem to like it. The difference though is this is really the only town they have ever known. My son was born in Canada but we moved very early in his life, my girls have never lived anywhere else though.

So how do I make this easy on them? How do I make it the transition without worrying them? We have talked about it, we have looked online at different things to do and they seem excited. Then it starts to sink in that they will be not be with Nana anymore and they wont be able to see their same friends everyday.

To help offset this, since we will likely be moving after school starts, I have decided to home school them for the first semester. Otherwise I would have to start them in a new school here and then pull them out and start them again in our new town. Who knows? maybe they will like it and decide that we want to keep it up? But for now we are doing it to make sure they can get through the transition period a little easier. We can take our time in a our new house and find the school that fits them best if we decide not to continue homeschooling.

We are also very involved in our church here. My husband and I volunteer in the youth department and our kids love being there. Finding a church like this one is going to be tough. We really feel like they are family for us.

Some days I feel really overwhelmed by all that I am facing. I wonder how it is ever going to feel "normal" again. Other days I feel much more confident and know that whatever happens will be in Gods timing and not mine.

So like the title says "If change is good, I'm fantastic!"